...ma first poem...written wayyy back in grade school.....more was added in '07
JUST
KNOW MY STORY...
My
Best Friend Says Im Bottled Up
I
Need A Fuckin' Therapist
But
I Can't Think of No-one I Wanna Share This Wit
Why
Should I Open Up On Someone Else's Carelessness
Feelin'
Hated Now Nigga So Here It Is.
Momma
workin' all day, Daddy out in da fleet
School
was hard for a shy guy like me.
But
I was never alone when I was out in tha streets,
Because
lil boy always had death round me.
Spirits
they came to me
Sometimes
I ran, sometimes I listened
Sometimes
I just stared as their bodies glistened.
I
was an ice cube as the temperature dropped.
As
I heard about how their heart had stopped.
Soon
I became their medium. A therapist if will..
But
seeing them to this day gives me chills.
They
were my only friends in Virginia Beach
I
guess they were the reason I never fell to tha streets.
Always
in on Saturday night,
I
never once thought of what went on that night.
I
excelled on the field, yet never had tha bulk
I
tried out, they laughed, but never did I sulk.
7
on 7's I proved tha world wrong.
Just
another line in ma song.
Mad
D on tha court, just never had tha dribbles
Once
again they laughed, my life, a giant riddle.
Had
talent with no purpose, or so it had seemed.
My
life, a puzzle, dat was left undone
With
no-one to listen, but the undead son.
Destined
for failure..never to see my father smile.
Life
was hopeless..for a while.
Daddy
left, mommy stressed..
Ma
role got bigger in the fam
I
became tha chef. I found joy in Skittles
Started
in piece together ma riddle.
Landstown
high..didn't start out right.
As
I learned wat it was like
To
be tha easiest nerd in sight.
True
dat, im a nerd, proud to say it.
Lifez
a game, and you have to play it.
Learned
dat da hard way,
Being
something im not, didnt help my life in those days.
A
castout from my own people,
I
found comfort with my best friend'z crowd.
Best
friend, brother, how ever you wanna put it
For
some reason, I made him proud.
And
I was accepted, I felt wanted
And
I was wanted, my quiet nature drew them to me.
So
I played my cards, and they came to me.
There
was one, who stood out..
I
had a strong urge to call out
and
Talk to her, but chall know me.
shy
guy, fyne gurl.. wordz will not come from me.
But
Carl knew by tha stare on my face.
so
he called Jamila, and brought her in ma space.
started
slow nd we hit it off right.
now
datz ma best friend nd yea she's off to tha RIGHT.
But
yea datz anotha story for anotha tyme.
Im
forgettin tha major turnin' point in ma lyfe...
When
eva I noticed that i could do wat few could do
I
maximized my efforts to tell tha news
But
none believe until achieved
then
it was percieved that i was different
Strange..yes
that's what they called me all tha tyme
wen
they knew i had supa senses, nd could read minds.
So
i decided to earn their respect...
turned
into a supa thief...some called me tha best in tha beach.
You
want it, I got it
thats
how it went...
You
placed an order, nd I'd record it
Next
day u bring da cash, id have ur order.
Every
big boss needed a partner, I had mine
dey
called us DNA, nd we did shyne.
Yall
dont kno how it feelz
to
wait almost 15 years to have friends
b4
then i wanted ma dayz to end.
raised
by tv, driven by money
i
became more sinister, nd it wont funny.
skool
was irrelevant, nd i got bold
As
I began to skip out, into tha cold...
But
i didnt care cuz lyfe was great.
I
had people, money, nd femalez.
Nd
none could hate.
But
they say all good things must come to an end
And
we slipped up, nd there it would end.
Shipped
off to Charlotte, to live with tha man
Who
left my mother, yes HELL BEGAN.
It
started off so rough, as we adjusted
But
I learned, how we would busted.
This
man'z senses were quite like mine
I
dont kno about tha dead people,
but
i was fine. So i hid my thoughtz from him
but
he still knew, wen we did wrong
Violent
yes, but tha joyous part of tha song.
As
he learned from me i learned from him.
And
with brookmere'z help, we were quickly known
Dem
funny boyz, gurlz would call on tha phone
Ma
hood was ma family, nd i would never change that
Best
athletes in tha world nd thats a fact.
They
made Charlotte, tha greatest place to b on any given day
From
koo-koo cribz to football, goin wreckless was a plus
But
tha fact was together, man NOBODY could touch us.
Famous
in da skool, both boy & gurlz knew bout us
Best
thing about it, i had only been there 3 months.
Now
we're cooler than eva,
and
even though college lyfe is callin
I
know where ma family'z at,
Nd
i kno they'll stay ballin
To
all those in ma lyfe, i thank u much
4
bein there nd keepin me goin through tha rough stuff.
Dedicated
2: Those that wanna kno me
AND
2: THOsE LOST ALONG THA WAY
