How Green Is Your Grass?

Ok ok....Settle Down Class
Take out your brain
Set out your memories & thoughts
For today's question to ponder is....
How green is your grass???

Does that question make you think?
Make you ponder?
Make you wonder?
Whats beyond?

Beyond what?
Your yard fool....
What goes on once you step off the block
Once you're off the clock
Closed Up Shop
& Make moves

What have you missed
Who have you outgrown
Who has outgrown you
Who remains stagnant
Who's still ignant

Its funny how I speak
Like life is sweet
A far from upside down
My thumb's hue been changed
Because around me....the blades are cripsy
Soil is hard
Climate is arid
Grass is brown...

At times we try to convey like
We have Miracle Gro in our lives
And RoundUp to check the weeds
And the right fertilizer to feed our seeds
In life.....
And I know I'm guilty of the same
And I know I can take 100% of the blame

Cuz I'm just that kind of out of sight
out of mind individual
Voluntary or Forced
The shit occurs
And time begins to blur
With the mundane rotation
Of the cirlce of cycles
Like a hamster in an exercise wheel
We're doomed to let life pass us while sit still

Until we take these steps.....

Lost on the Path Pt.1 (March 3, 2009 at 3:52am)

Now i lay me down to sleep
but wen i close my eyes 
My path i cannot see
So i open them again
only to find
That the path i once walked on
Is no longer mine

.............But it could be................

See............
At the end of the Path
that i frequently traveled in my mind
we were together forever
me & myself
on tha Path to riches
on tha Path to fame
on tha Path to the world...knowing my name
but that wasnt the important thing
cuz wat made me happy
wat made my heart sing
was that fact that i had me & myself
to face any trouble
that life would bring

One day i rose out my bed
only to find
that a piece of myself
had left my mind
Panic!...all over
wall crept all over
I was alone again
forced to travel on tha Path without my friend.

A "normal person" would have felt right at home
Anyone would have welcome that fact that there was one entity
inside his brain....mayb not brain
but sub-conscience really

See.....a dual personality
Is not a skitzo
Itz more of a helping hand
Wen life, emotions, and prejudice blind me

To react without thinkin, i could now do
A timebomb of fear and anxiety
Wat to do...

I ran....

Hid myself within myself
As i let my circumstances break me down
I wanted to lash out...
at all that was around
The only thing left to do
was to search myself
cuz the Path was callin me to move forward

Nd so...that is what i must do
Rely on wat we've taught each other
to guide this vessel of a man
To reach the finish line....
that is the plan

Vacancy in ma brain
Life seems so lame
Eager to repels itz gamez
Im smilin to let chu think im sane

But im cryin
Cuz im empty
I'm So alone
Searchin' for my passionate side
~NoBoDY~....come home

MooKiE BlaCKheArT (March 3, 2009 at 3:20am)

Goldie
Mookie
Keyah
So many names
One lil old lady

Hard interior
She showz no weakness
Mean mug for dayz
She'll chew yo azz out once
Bet ya $20 you'll change ya wayz

Asshole in a half
Sweetheart in a half
To tickle her bright azz
is bout the only way to make her laugh

Equal in quantity wen it comes to entities
Much respect weneva she speaks to me
Not only cuz shes a 42 yr old lady
But her, her, & her...they keep me from goin crazy

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Shadow Dreadz

Such a pleasure knowin this loser. Yall think im an asshole....DIS lightskin bum right here is pure asshole!!! Nd yes..its bout 22.765 times worse wen she'z drivin...damn neared killed tha whole crew twice...lol...

But when the asshole Mookie is put aside, she a real thoughtful person on the inside of her aging skin. lol. She was like da 1st lady to get me sumin 4 valentines day other than mom dukez.....2 giant bagz of skittles and a BLK & RED dog....ma fav. colors....letz b real...tha lil fukker sho knowz how 2 make a nigga smile wen he needz it most....nd i do tha same 4 her cuz she ma 2nd favorite asshole...(I'm my own favorite asshole cuz i just take it to a whole 'notha level)...but im thankful to have dis woman on my side

~MooKiE BlaCKheaRT~ aka Shadow Dreadz

Lady Richardson (March 2, 2009)

So much soul
Wrapped in a "small" package
Poke her tha wrong way
The geech will come out
Nd thou shall receive smackage lol

There'z so much that could be said
about this lil bundle of joy
to remain in her life u must kno
that she'z fun to be around
be she'z not a toy

Best Friend in any form
She is her own category
No lies, no fairy tale, no shame
I wish more would study her claim to fame

If i was ever losing myself
I'd rip out my own soul, 
put it in a box and tell her 2 guard it 
Cuz i'd know she'd never let it go

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I've known Naja since i was a lil junior @ West Meck. Still fresh to tha wayz of tha souf..I didnt kno that many people but i knew she was sum1 u could turn to. she was tha type of girl that looked like she would have tha "Big head" cuz she was bad...but no....Not even. So down to earth...Itz like she was tha type of girl that shyt froze wen she walked in the gym lol...had the biggest crush on her throughout the school year...even got cuzzed out wen i didnt ask her to prom (wat can i say...i thought she'd say no)... Skip the sad story tho...

I'd go 2 the end of the earth for this one, cuz i kno she'd do it for me....nd if eva i fell in life, i kno that b4 i bust ma face wide open on tha concrete she'd b there 2 catch ma blk azz

Everyone, myself included, can learn something from her being. She'z everything you'd want a bestfriend to be. An individual at best, never to be tamed. 

she'z one hell of an individual (rare thing in this world)
she'z one hell of a friend
she'z one hell of a dancer (lol)
she'z one hell of a leader
she'z one hell of a WOMAN (key word).

Sooner Or Later.....My Interpretation (February 24, 2009 at 10:53pm)

Sooner or later it all comes crashing down (crashing down)
Crashing down (crashing down)
When everyones around
I bet you would of paid up all your cash down (your cash down)
And not make a sound (to make a sound)
When everyone knows now

So your sad
About the moment
You lost your love (damn)
You couldn't see her leaving (you were gay)
And that sucks don't it
Cause god yanked the rug
And holding your heart will not help you breathe

Sooner or later it all comes crashing down (crashing down)
Crashing down (crashing down)
When everyones around
I bet you would of paid up all your cash down (your cash down)
And not make a sound (to make a sound)
When everyone knows now

It all comes crashing

Down
It's over leave it


So your sad
And you should own it
That you fucked up (damn)
You thought that you were the team (you were gay)
And now your opponent
He wears your gloves
A nightmare just ate up your dreams

Sooner or later it all comes crashing down (crashing down)
Crashing down (crashing down)
When everyones around
I bet you would of paid up all your cash down (your cash down)
And not make a sound (to make a sound)
When everyone knows now

It all comes crashing

Down
It's over leave it


So your sad
Could have had so much done
You blew it off
Your chances passing you by (you were gay)
Time waits for no one
And it costs for a loss
A cosmic joke
Should you laugh or cry

Sooner or later it all comes crashing down (crashing down)
Crashing down (crashing down)
When everyones around
I bet you would of paid up all your cash down (your cash down)
And not make a sound (to make a sound)
When everyone knows now

It all comes crashing


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Bad things happen
thats a given
But realize bad things happen to everyone
And with that comes the reason that this is one of my favorite songs
Bcuz i happen to kno that I have those around me that will pick me up wen times get hard
Bcuz i kno that they will b there to tell me itz time to move on 

"ITS OVER........LEAVE IT!"

Cuz no matter wat happenz i kno tha sun will shine anotha day
Cuz i kno with them...even wen im away from....shyt i feel Right @ Home
Cuz i kno im neva alone
Cuz i kno when they look @ me...they wanna see me smile
Cuz i just kno....bein around these niggaz...is/was/will be worth my while
Cuz i kno they'd want me to be there wen it all comes crashing down on them.

I'm Sick

Funny how life waits
For the right moment
To rub it in your face
Impeccable timing indeed it is
None greater perhaps than this.

Years ago I discovered a beast
a virus, a plague, an epidemic
That took over my body
Corrupting my life
Inserting more darkness
Depleting me of light.

In order to combat such an evil
I quarantined myself in a cage
and there I remained
until I was able to control the beast
But control was always the least
of my issues.

I had to learn to combat the side effects
The comments
The rumors
The lies
The eyes
Following me once I left the cage
The thoughts from others
Wondering when things will be the same
For the silence was driving them insane

Silence......
The DEAFENING SILENCE.....
The pin drops
And drips from water spouts
Only helped my darkness grow
And keep the beast at bay
And until I get this thing fully in check
.....In my cage I shall stay

...Cuz I'm Sick

Itz A Beast! (February 24, 2009 at 10:26pm)

An issue begins as a germ
Small in size
Yet the issue has to potential
To rip humans apart
How you ask....
Fill it with lies

See...the issue is planted in the mind
Of a select few
But frustration coupled with silence
Multiplied over time
Nd it exponentially....grew
now the germz tha issue created are spreading an alarming pace
they infect tha body at such an alarming rate
nd itz funny how the germs of an issue are spread
cuz it happenz wen nd only wen.....
wordz are said

See...the frustration beginz to mount
Nd the initial victim just wantz to let the frustration out
So he does...to his friend
Tha friend doesnt kno it
But the issue is now in him
spreading in his body
his emotions all change to match that of the initial victim
all rationality goes out the window
Wordz become ur worst enemy
Because you want no part of it
Until curiosity bitez u in the ass
Now you wanna kno watz up
..SIlly Fool...you have no clue
That the issue virus...is now in you

As your friendz story is told to you
You feel your emotions become twisted and confused
"Wow...damn....nigga i had no clue"
Words that come to you
As u begin to formulate opinions
of the ones you "thought" you knew
But wait there kidz...itz not done
Cuz now u have the strongest to tell someone...

See....You find one of your closest peoples
Someone you kno u can tell
Cuz if u dont soon
You're gonna crack like an egg shell
All this talk, whether true or false is going
All this time, the issue is still growing
Multiplying.....Spreading.....
Evolving.............

Cuz now the virus has got back to the other original party involved
Nd now it seems like thingz will never be resolved
Bcuz the virus beingz anew
When intial victim #2
tellz his crew
watz been goin down
& on the other side of town
the virus has already done its job
bcuz all reason is gone
Nothin is left is hate

The virus isnt there anymore
It has evolved once more
All that stands are two Beasts
One from victim #1
One from victim #2
but this aint japanese tv
tha Beasts aint finna take this to the streets
Cuz u dont understand yet do u
The Beast comes only to destroy lives
Take friendshipz, nd leave nothing but hate and spite
Cuz it will swallow you whole
Nd the you...that I once knew
will never be seen again
Nd of course you'll b ma friend
But....from a distance
Cuz i aint catchin no virus
Not again....no way

So look forward to a time of no me
Cuz this bullshyt is mad painful to see
I've handled my virus
And its hard to watch from a distance
Knowin all tha great shyt you'll miss
But at wat expense?
Deedz were done
Ties were broken
But time heals all wounds
Thatz if you dont let the Beast Consume.....

Ma Fam! (February 19, 2009 at 4:55am)

We the best
Nd thats the only damn way to put it
This is my circlec
No alltel needed
these niggaz is my AT&T
cuz nights & weekends wit them
tha good times are free

everything aint peachy
sometimes shyt gets hard
problems arise
& up goes ya guard
they said "Sooner or Later,
It'll all come crashing down"
and thatz true
but wen it comes down
i kno im not alone
cuz i got ma fam
sittin all around me
nd they'll neva let me go
into the abyss
that swallows a person whole
never again will i have to see that sorrow

they say good friends come & go
get some, lose some
well shyt if u must kno
that wen this year is said & done
tha fam will live on
takin memories of the past
nd using them to ignite the flames of tha future
Good times are coming
Bad times are coming
Those are for certain
But with those comes more
And more
ANd more
AND more
Cuz tha world doesnt stop
nd neither will we
we just tryna make somethin of our life
bein tha best niggaz we can be

...hmmm....i can see it now
peoplez readin this tryna b nosey see......
tryna make us look like the evil lil niggaz society
makes us out to be
but shyt in case yall dont already kno
i've said it once, but i guess yall dont kno

I rep 311....

& "We Don't Love Dem Ho3s!"

Itz Da Fam....but wait...WHERETHA FUCK IS TJ????? DAMNIT HARRIS!SPECIAL SHOUTOUT 2 DEM ECSU GIRLZ!UGHHHHHH......HEAD..........2...............BIG.......TAKE....THA.........DAYUM.........PICTURE..........U kno wat man....fuck emWe a fool....where u @ Ashley????????/

Fuck ThaaaaaaaaaaaT! (February 9, 2009 at 1:40am)

I'm the same
I'm a lame
I always play the same game
But i'll change it up
So that they only see the change
From the last guy
Play wit ya emotions
Put ya on dat emotional roller coaster
Tha upz, downz, and everything in between
That eventually makez shyt feel like heaven.....or so it seemz
But ummmmmmmmmm....niggaaaa.........

FUCK THAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT!

I'm the same
Living off past glory
Not searchin for anew...
Reachin ma peak and not expanding
on all the shyt that my great mind could do
I'll just kick back and relax
Let the riches of the world slip from my grasp
....hmmmmmmmmm.........
meaning the dreams of tomorrow were never meant to last
my life....just another breeze thru the spring grass....
came......nd whoosh nigga...........gone.....
but c'mon now...........

FUCK THAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT!

I'm the same
Arrogance is my name
Swag is my game
but um....swag....i cant define it
But since all the rappers (not hip hop artists) say it
then i got to have it
Cuz u kno....i got game
Nd my game is swag
Northern girls love my southern swag
Shyt.......Southern chix love my southern swag
But neither group can tell me wat swag is....
But i can bag em up nd be done wit em b4 the end of the month
Why.....AYEEE cuz they love my swag....
>.........ummm...yeaaaa.......ol swag nigga......

FUCK THAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT!

DEDICATED TO CARL, THA BIG 3, & BOOM BOOM

& OF COURSE MA YUUUUUUUULE-NIGGA...COURT!

No rest for the wicked.......

A filthy place this brain of mine 
and time and time again 
I try to stop collecting these thoughts 
but they get lost all in these paper tossed lofts 
of this frontal lobe

And I swear to you I try
To sort out these thoughts
BUt damn it really it is a lot
Swimming inside my dome

So I built this machine
to filter the good bad and indifferent
and place them nice and neat for me to see
but as you can prolly tell...that didnt work
So now im back to square one

I'm drowning in my own brain
Flood warnings were a tad too late
And now I sit alone inside myself
Outside on the steps in the rain

Why o Why cant I seem to focus
Why o Why cant I seem to get right
What is it i'm lacking
Where is my calm, Where is this foresight?

So the rain showed no signs of letting up
And my clothes were soaked so I got up
To remove myself from the situation of mass hydration
and decided to try a dryer approach

And here I am.....
Solo ridin in the desert of my mind
Wondering what the hell is going on

Apparently I'm damned if I do
Damned if I don't
Melancholy if I will
Downtrodden if I won't

The lesser of two evils will put me 6 feet under
But maybe that there slumber
Will be alot more peaceful
Than the carnage that continues to eat me alive........

PERFECT PT. 2 AKA .....THA BREAKUP (January 23, 2009 at 6:40am)

Time passes on
Get tired of that time bomb
tha one that goes off ...ooooooooo
every ten minutes
...tired of tha relationship and everything in it
......even tired of hittin it????????
yea nigga....that too
so tha question is...
how to do it???

you'll b a bitch if ya let a friend do it
but you don't wanna argue all night if u hop 2 it
but my future integrity
is more important that a few hours of insanity
all because i didn't take the time to see
that beauty compiled with a tight body
doesn't mean that her inner self is fine tuned
but the sex allowed me to look past her "tude"
didnt let me see that her shyt stank
she was truly Miss doo-doo
let me oversee the childish antics
and illogical reasoning of this woman
............nd so it goes down..........

We argue for an hour and forty-two
about tha thingz i put her through
how she was there for me wen my life was bad
how she was the one who kept me on ur feet
now i second guess wat the hell i'm doing
is she really a parasite
or does she need 2 get tha hell out my life
fifty-three point seven secondz of silence transpire
she sayz i love you....
i say liar
i grab my coat....
she beginz to cry
i stare.....& sigh....
& turn.....
she hopz up.....grABz my arm
says dont leave me
i say...i;m sorry
..................DAMN................

tha walk bak 2 my room
feelz so new
like a burden lifted off my shoulderz
but at the same time
i feel like i did wrong..timeout
i thought i was in the right
jeeezz......watz a nigga to do
sleeping it off doesnt help
wen i see her in my dreams
great...can't sleep.....time is 4:32
yall have same class in five hours
you can already taste ur guilt
damn.......dat shyt is sour
but u did right...no sour necessary
life is sweet.....or...........at least it should b
..............ding ding nigga...class time..........

not a word exchanged
just one hateful glance
in my direction
well....at least you can look at her.......
...............................................
......................without getting an erection
class over...
I look over my shoulder
nd she'z hoppin into tha passenger
Of ma best friend Navigator

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SHHYYTTTTTTTTTTTT


& NO....this is NOT....A TRUE STORY!

Perfect....A Semi-Negro-Narrative (January 23, 2009 at 6:19am)

I saw her in my dreams
Pure goddess in all that i could see
Never thought i had a chance
Everytime i took a glance
that i could fill my life with such beauty
She'z untouchable to me
I'd give her my liver
Her smile makez ma body quiver
Ma heartbeat is 4.289 times quicker
I stay daydreamin in class
about all that i could give her
I'll even take her last name
Anything to be her mister
Anything to get her number on some paper
...........well........cell phone

So i got the gall
Remembered i had ballz
Walked up to her slowly
She turned slightly
Itz like see can see right past me
like im not even there
But i dont care
i'm already here
just say hi, how ya doin
my name is AJ Funny
nd im a pretty swell guy
id just thought u were fricken beautiful
not tryin 2 embarrass myself so.........bye

well not really bye
i'd extend this conversation
but i got a class @ 12
so i was wonderin wen i had some time to kill
i could call ya
& we could discuss wateva
not tryin push all up on ya
but if i dont do this my mind, you'll neva get off of
..............that
..............deadly
..............nervewrecking
..............silence
..............b4 the verdict
..................................(bout 2 damn shyt myself wit anxiousness)
.......................................................
so she says yea,
you can text me 2nite
damn near jumped out ma clothes
good thing ma belt is on tight
lata on that night,
thinkin tha time is right
i shoot a text her way
wat up...how was ur day.....
......convo presses on
......seems like a keeper
......just one problem.....
i aint meet the real her
b4 i kno it, im goin over to see her
golden ticket in ma pocket
lordz kno im not gon skeet in her (on her mayb....heh heh heh)

Pre-mature relationship
I'm ready prepared for her shyt
How her head is big as shyt
never laid-back
always in some drama shyt
she type disrespectful
even to mama chick
u had no clue wat u was walkin into
but tha sex was so crazy u aint kno wat 2 do
break her "heart" and neva hit again (or so they want u 2 think....lol)
or sit & be miserable and yes...smash again
she seemed so perfect...........




HELL NO....IM NOT DONE

HIGH! (January 10, 2009 at 11:46pm)

Worry?
I Do Not
For I am in her care
So I never dare
To think she'd do me wrong
Her eyes sing me a song
That lulls me 2 sleep
My trust she'll always keep
Cuz I kno that she's the one

The One to take away the pain
Tha pain that made it rain.
Rain that is just a distant memory.
Cuz now...
I'm on cloud nine
A nigga is SO high
nd you ask...
How High is He?????

Welllllllllllllll.........
I catch contact from her smile
Her eyes..they drive me wild
I get a buzz from her touch
Shyt...its betta than tha kush . . . (and no....i dont smoke)
You'd b tipsy 
if u even saw they way she kissed me
So drawn out in love
All the lame haters diss me
But its cool
Cuz i cant see em
Cuz im up so high
up on tha 747 of love...chillen in tha sky
wit ma goddess on my right
ridin' off into the night
Her last treated her wrong
But she kno i'll do her right
Dont matter who'z around
She'z the baddest thing in sight

Nd they can't take me from her
Cuz she got me so HIGH!....

LOL...(LIQ IN SYSTEM...PRODUCES GREAT RESULTS......)

Greatness... (January 5, 2009 at 2:59am)

Im down

Im low

But I won't remain here

I refuse to live in fear

Fear that I may become another you

Fear that by society's standards of the black male

I'll b just another you

But not me

Im not you

We bare the same name

But i wont play your game

Money pwns your life

We're the same creed

They call you Henry

But i call you Greed

Wealth you chase

Nd you've found a way

But money doesnt make you happy

Stealing the joy of others 

Is the only thing that will brighten ur day

Bcuz i can't see the finish line

Doesn't mean i've failed

It just means i've got a ways to go

But to you

Its an excuse to sink to an all new low

You wont bring me down with you

Cuz I am Greatness

I am a beam of light

That exists in the dark

Built to last

Too strong 2 break down

I'm a beacon of light

For all that are around

The trials nd bullshyt u put me through

Just another step closer to ridding myself of you

And once my brotha is free

You'll have no satisfaction

Of trying to destroy me

Cuz i wont b around

Tearz hang from my eyelashes

Ma emotions torn from your verbal slashes

But i heal quick

And as tha thought of u makez me sick

Youu r still my father

But trust nd believe

When its all said & done

And i have achieved

All that i set out to do

Your role in my past

Shall not be forgotten

I'll use ur face as pavement

Walk on it....

On my path to Greatness

I Used to be A Star

I used to be a star….

But in the beginning…

I used to be nothing

Just a cloud of dust that began to rotate

I would spin, slowly

Tryna figure out what it would take

To be a star

To belong in the cosmos with the greats

I got myself together

And before ya knew it

I was spinning faster

At unrecognizable speeds

I was on my way to being something….

Idk what this “something” was….

But dammit its better than where I was

 I realized I wanted to be my own star

Massive, luminous, a stand out guy

Y’all should’ve seen me

And soon I grew

A Giant in my own right

Naw…I was a supergiant

You couldn’t miss me at night

You could see the glow

The aura that drew you in

I was there man…

Ask me and im there

You need it, I got it….

Cuz I’m a star

Bursting with activity

A Supernova in these streets

My shoulders bigger than the cosmos

All the secrets the universe has told me

Because they know

I wont hurt their soul

But…

When you begin to pull so much in

And nothing comes out

I suppose theres no where left for the energy to go

In the end…I had a blowout…..

All the good I did

All the days I grew

And now here lies….a cold black hole

I got Problemz (January 3, 2009 at 2:14am)

They say sooner or later
It all comes crashing down
And according to the universe
I'm supposed 2 wear a frown
So one day i decided to tear a hole 
A hole in fabric of society
A hole in the sanity that was me
And stitched a new way 
The way things are for me
The way things area nd will be
Nd I need it like this
Cuz i Got Problemz

So my universe
I am alone
No one to run to
No one else is home....but him
My other half & I
inhabit my universe...nd so we begin
our struggle to survive
our fight to stay alive
our plea to never let them see us cry

but then u ask...
why must you fight...wen ur the only one there
Cuz my universe
Is inside my mind
And the real world
Is & always will be right behind me
& in front of me
& all around me
watchin, looking, listenin
pointin, laughin...
suffocatin...damn...cant breath
im gaspin....need air....
but they only stop 2 stare
damn...no help....must bail myself out
(yea i kno....i got problemz)

So i take a deep breath
Escape to my universe
Before tha wallz crash down
On this fake town, built by tha man in charge
...my universe has change
...i find people who share my common goal here
...the common goal to suceed..
...the common goal to survive..
...the common goal to do wat u cant
.....say wat u wont
.....think how u dont
but they say We got Problemz
cuz we do thingz our way

311 is my universe
we share the goal
the goal to make it

"We got all that we've got all Despite You....
And We gone get what we get all to spite You...."

I Am.... (December 1, 2008 at 4:28am)

Who or What someone is
Seems to be a big thing nowadays
So allow me to give you some insight
At tha mental phenomenon you see everyday

I Am no ordinary being
I am mentally divided
My thoughts
never one-sided
A pendulum of feelings
Swaying from reckless to sensible
Dangerous yes, but at the same time, no
Becuase no matter who's in charge
I Still kno which way i need to go

I am A Gift & A Curse
unto myself
a brilliant thing it is to have
but a terrible fight wen they clash
I kno wat you're thinking
"Dat nigga mentally unstable"
NO BYTCH.............it is because of these two
that i am able
Able to make it through a dangerous past
Able to smile
Able to laugh
Able to love
So don't write me off as a nutball
Cuz you dont kno tha two halves (get it)

I am a cure & a disease
In tha lives of my peers
I can be a guilding light
Or i can be tha guy to make ur light disappear
Good friend
Worse enemy
Wateva it may be
Trust and believe 
I do it to tha best of my ability

Sometimes i sit and wonder
Am I mentally healthy?
Well i already kno that answer
Of course not buddy
Man I just.............
I wish that they all could just see
That through all of my struggles
Through all of my good times
Through of my life 
I have been & always will be
I'm just..........me

But hey...Ya can't make em all believers.......
True Life.........It Ain't For everybody

DUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Dat Nigga is So Trendy (LOL) (November 21, 2008 at 12:01pm)

AYO!!

Dat Nigga is so Trendy

But Dat Nigga Ain't

Dat Nigga Is Betta than da ordinary Nigga

Cuz he can buy wat da ordinary Nigga can't

He can buy her, her love,

her mind & her body

But because Dat Nigga bought some new Gucci

He also just bought him some new coochie!

Da ordinary nigga

Doesnt need much

But becuase he ain't rollin 26's

Den you kno he ain't datin' shyt

WEn it comes down to it

This is a material world, Y fight it

But does tha name of tha outside of ma gear

Have much to do wit tha man (or boi) inside it

I mean..some of yall may b psychic

but tha telepathic waves cant get past his sidekick...

So wat is it dat she's lookin for

Is it good personality, or dem new kicks

I laugh sometimes

Cuz the way i get laughed at

i rock $8 shoes

so i suppose im not tha one tha ladies should even think to choose

For tha guys that neva had a pair of J'z

apparently that says alot for us

cuz we must not have anything intelligent to say

butcha kno

money cant buy everything

nd if ya can buy tha airhead

'Gon head Trendy Nigga--- Do ya thang (lol)

LOL....just lettin it out after some lady straight dissed ma monkey ass recently..lol

Why Are You Living? (November 18, 2008 at 5:03am)

So I was once asked
"Why Are You Living?"
And I've Finally Come up with an Answer:

From birth I can't say that i had it rough
But mess i was externally exposed to 
made me wanna inte the dust
Major disappointments & Broken Promises
That i brought on myself
caused a feelin of mental self-mutilation.
Time after time i fell short of expectations
Expectations set by peers & my own self
Millions of instances i put my own feelings on the shelf
And sat back and watched my happiness disappear into darkness.

But they say where there's darkness
There shall be light and vice versa
So I took a stroll into darkness
in order to find a purpose
Onward I walked into tha place where light seldom goes
Hand in hand with tha little bit of hope
That had been left in my bones..

In that dark place
Was a warmth that was new to my skin
In that dark place
Was a new feeling that caused me feel something within
In that dark place
I met tha very entity that kept me sane
In that dark place
I decided to carry that darkness not only in my heart but in my brain

From that day forward
I saw things differently
I had a gift
I had begun to see
That im living...
To Give Back To Those That Never Gave to Me

I live For You
The girl who cries at night
I live for You
The guy who sees nothing ahead in life
I live for You
Everyone who has ever given up hope
I live for You
Who believes that there is no place to go.

That'z why I am unique in everything i do
I'm unique in everything i say
I'm unique in everything i wear
I'm unique wit everything....i swear..lol
My purpose in life is my giving
And you are having a hard time with life in general
Then mayb you should ask yourself...

"Why Are You Living?"

100%???? Yeah Right....

These days we live in a world where people live by the "Keep it 100" code. As that's really admirable...like its really admirable. You should strive for saying what you feel 100% of the time. But often I notice that you just can't keep it all the way 100. Now there could be several factors that could assume responsibility for this phenomena. Every person and situation is different. So many different variables and factors and people and things to consider. Its enough to make your head spin.

But my gripe here today comes in when someone NEEDS that 100. For their own good, for their own sake, their humanity. Some will come in right about now with the usual excuses like, "Its not my place" or "You wouldn't like my answer"...or even the lovely "Its not what you wanna hear right now..." Shyt like that....grinds my fuggin gears man. If you know the person in question like you'd claim to, then you have to deliver your opinion. Expose their life to a new angle that could push them in the direction that could be more beneficial to them.

Instead of the tough love that's desperately needed, people oft turn to dishing out "Facebook Status Responses". For those that don't understand what that is...lemme break it down for you. You ever log into your facebook and you seem some sappy "I need some attention" type status? Of course you do, because that's what that status box is for. The "Hey! Welcome to my life and whats going on in it box" But anyways the "positive responses" under said box feel all kinds of generic and hallmark cardish....

Sometimes I feel thats the kind of responses I get from people. And to be honest....I hate it. Makes me feel like keeping it all to myself because people don't know me well enough to give it to me raw.......(at 2am...that entire sentence was just all.....smh) But yea..I mean....its the truth. People should respect the fact that whether you like it or not I'm gonna tell you the complete truth about how I feel about a certain situation you want my opinion on. So why can't I get the same in return. Am I too weak-minded? Is that it....hell I don't know.

Damn I'm hungry.......TO THE KITCHEN....Peace 

50-50

A line o symmetry
Divides the pie
equal in parts
cannot be differentiated by the eye

Each side mimics the other
A repeating equality
Of yin & yang

Like those annoying math rules
what you do to one side
You must do to the other
Reciprocation is like automation
Because its equal

So....why my fractions not readin 1/2?
What am I to do..
I'm tryna balance these chemical equations
But I'm gettin jumbled responses
And now questions are a-raising
Because I can't seem to fix this simple math.

50 & 50 make 100
a whole
But when you cant get 1+1 to = 1
then ya damn sure not gonna put some extra zeroes out there
....or will you....

place holders meant to show larger quantities
and give increased value to outsiders
trying to see how much you have on you
trying to see if you were good enough to build on your 1+1

A Bunch of Nothin

Call it magic
Call it sorcery
Call it science
Call it what you want
Just don't call it nothin

You can call it damage
You can call it cuttin
You can call it a high that
Cant be touched by nothin

They might call it a nuisance
They might call it a problem
They might have a million excuses
But They dont know how to solve em

He might call it lovely
He might call it beautiful
He might compare it to
All the marvelous wonders of the world

She might call it ugly
She might call it hideous
She might think these things
Without knowing what the reason is

What are we describing?
What is it that we speak of?
What is this person, place or thing
That we can't seem to get the words for?

You can call this creative
You can call it brilliant
You're gonna call it somethin
Until you find out
I just wrote about a whole bunch of nothin
....welcome to my brain lol

War For Me......

Cue the slow motion
And the dramatic violin
This is not the opening scene
...no...we're far from the beginning

Way past the seed being planted
The rising conflict building suspense
We're at the peak
Just before the deciding climax
Just take a small glimpse...

...of the bloodshed
...of the pain
...of the war
...the war for me

There's only one mind
A single conscious
That can be occupied
And now its time
For a leader to arise
The time for choosing sides
Are beyond gone

Who's it gonna be?
Who will rise...who will fall
The ever so helpful Captain Optimist
....and the o-so cold Dark-Matter
The war ravages on
Casualties are high
but thats the price of battle

Whoever wins.....I lose
Right or Left....I don't Choose
There is no diplomacy here....
Somebody will Win...& Somebody will Lose

Death is a gift...Given at Birth
Peace is a mere byproduct...Given From War
Life is allowed to Thrive Because Death has done his Duty
And Thus A Ruler shall Arise...at the Conclusion
of the War For Me.....

Nd Yet.... (October 28, 2008 at 4:18am)

It seems

that my attitude changes

like tha coming moon & sun

shyt will flip Nd Yet....

i likez it

Wen it seems

tha world turnz bak on me

life flipz tha script on me

All thatz left is me.........& me

Nd Yet....

It excites me

I live for the opportunity

To pick myself up

bcuz for too long

others have lifted me up

wen i felt like giving up

a sick feelin comez in my gut

body getz weak like i just busted a good nut

y....cuz im fukkin up

Nd Yet...

I live for da challenge

So if i seem like an ass

Just let da shyt ride past

cuz new management is here for awhile

nd to those who dont no this guy

let me tell ya...

He'z so ~HeaRTleSS~...

Smile on ma face

Black heart in ma chest

Is tha only way ima survive

nd pass tha test

Test of life...

nd i've been gettin by easy

but takin tha easy way out

makez a nigga feel all sleazy..

So itz tyme for a change

puttin tha ~NoBoDY~ in tha closet

Let him rest for awhile

Wen this is over, i promise

I'll return to being the guy

That yall kno nd love.

But for now....Nap Tyme