Drifting

Let my soul float
Away from my being
Forget all logic
Forget all reasoning

Let me drift
Let me sway
Allow me to forget there was a today
Allow me to forget there was a yesterday

I dont care that there will be a tomorrow
Or the possibility that there may not be a tomorrow
My pain is non-existent 
& So is my sorrow
When the music takes me away
None of you can touch me.
I am awake, alive, & invincible
Nothing but dark, starlit skies above me.

Let my soul, drift away from my body
And the beat take me away
Mellow out & disappear from this troubled place
As soon as I hit play.....

Just Breathe

Inhale
Take in the essentials
Enhancing the physical
Strengthening the mental
Its a process
That we all go through
When the sick world we live in
Makes ya gasp for the O2
& You wonder who you should go to
.....Just Breathe....

Exhale
Out goes the stress
The setbacks
The thoughts that take away from our more
Leaving us with less.
Cuz its just a process
That we all go through
When we're tryna be great
In all that we do
But the way life is set up
Makes you have to increase your efforts by 2...
....and another 2.....
....and another 2.....
Release the CO2
& Just Breathe.......

My Game 7 Prediction

Heartless/Nobody Part 1 (02/22/08)

Some of you are wondering

Y i call myself Heartless

some of you ask me why

some of you could care less

I've told few the story

But as it won't let me sleep

I think itz only right

That i let chu kno the tale

That my rotten heart keepz.

Heartless

There are times in ones life

Wen the world in which we know

Erodes in our face

And we are left

With no where to go

7th grade was the time

Up until this point

Life, i guess, was pretty fine

But that all changed

wen he left from my home

It seems dat after that day

All that resided in me was skin nd bone

I shunned the world

Became a bookworm

All A'z was tha game

But dat was just middle school

Tha time wen tha rest of my peers were starting to act a fool

But me...nawwwwwwwwww

Just wasnt my thing

Nver did i go out

never did my phone ring

Dark times call for dark thingz

Nd dark thingz came to me

Ma dark nature

Allowed me to see

I saw their ghastly figures

A faint glow they did have

I'm talking about dead people

If u must ask

At Last!

I had friends

They talked

I listened

Nd it worked vice versa

They told me of how my heart

Or lack of i should say

Called out to them

Each and everyday

Da conversations, interesting

yet i kept that to myself

Didnt wanna be checked into tha psycho ward

At least not yet

But to conclude

That dark half of me feels more alive

The past few weekz have made him harder to hide

Im older, mentally stronger now

But im becoming gradually anti-social again

Nd yes...i kno i have friends

But wen u feel that tha entire world has turned its bak on u

It creates tha empty black hole that doesnt consume u

It changes u

Into that empty shell

Tha shell that plauged my past

Tha past that shaped tha boi b4 u now

Tha boi that does all that he can

To see that the feeling of joy never leaves him again

I Neva Forget (2/19/08)

Woman in these troublesome days of mine

Somewhere in the middle/back side of my mind

I neva 4got wat we had

Nd i hate tha fact dat i made u mad

But it still standz that we both still care

Nd if u call trust ill b there

Nd if sum1 lay a hand on ya

U already kno tha handz will b there

Ur growin up nd im glad to see that

But hopefully not too fast

Cuz we've see wat happens to those who act too grown

Their name is lost to tha streets

Never to be owned

By tha owner again

But chu

U got that light

Nd i pray not for my sake

Dat ur next man treats u rite

Cuz u kno me

I lovez to fight

Nd if u must kno,

i dont have a whole flock of groupies here at school

Mah greatest but groupies...dat just causes issues

B cool

I'll see u one of these dayz

Nd u betta make me dinner wen i come say hey

wHAT dOES iT mEAN?? (02/19/08)

They say life is what chu make it 

So wat is it wen u hate it?

Wen the fantasy that brings joy to ur soul

Disappears and leaves u bak at tha black hole

Where u 1st started

U try and tell urself

Wait it out and be strong

But the person inside doesnt wanna be calm

It wants to rid itself of the taste in its mouth

Tha taste of agony,

the smell of defeat

It wants to wash to dirt of tha world off its feet

But What does that reveal?

Bucz some see dirt as something to hide

But in reality, mayb dirt is something used to hide

DIrt covers of what we actually feel inside

DirT protects us from tha truth

So I wonder how many how of you reading this 

Are asking yourself this:

Y do I do the things I do?

Mayb its habit

Mayb its tha desire to not be alone

Me, its the strong hate

Of what calls my heart its home

There are some things

Which some are not supposed 2 see

Some thingz that lay inside of me

Nd i kno im not alone

So mayb i cant condone

The thingz i see nd do

But that wat makez me different from u

I've done a good thing making my light shine

But due to recent actions

This little light of mine

Doesnt wanna shine

Is It wrong

To embrace the darkness

That callz my heart its home

Tha dark part of my past

Came bak 4 me 

Wen i was knocked on my ass

For those who worry of my well-being

Worry not, u will not see the change

Just kno that there are two entities

That inhabit my brain

------"Heartless"

Old Poetry - My Appreciation (2/11/08)

My Appreciation

Ive come a long way

Some say i shouldnt have lived to see this day

Nd im not gon lie...

They're prolly rite

Cuz i kno where im supposed 2 b 2nite

Dining with tha demons

Or hangin' in tha heavens

With tha figures of my uncertain past

Nd those who met an untimely future

But seeing as im here where i am now

I dont kno when nd i dont kno how

But all i kno now

is credit must be given

to those who helped me in mah life of sin

My appreciation goes to those who havent quit on me

Those who havent quit on themselves

I appreciate all my friends that r aggies nd r bellez

Yall r da shyt....point blank

I APPRECIATE:

skittles cuz they bring out tha real me

food cuz i love to eat

Goldie, cuz dat gurl is just 2 sweet

All da gurlz hittin da gym up on da regular, GET IT TIGHT

I see yall workin hard so keep it TIGHT

All da gurlz dat kno they are fine just tha way they are

Keep doin wat chu do

Cuz da realest will love ya 4 who u r

Da Maniacs for givin' me sumwhere to legally act like a "bonified negro!"

Outside of tha gym, only a few kno how dat goes

Mass appreciation goes to ma fam

4 keepin me afloat

Not just da immediates but the whole Funny Fam

dey always let me kno dat i can

To those here @ school:

that kno wat comes 1st

To those dat look after me

Wen life is wat hurtz me tha most

My Alarm Clock

Everyone has an alarm clock with some annoying pattern that 90% of the time their body will recognize and will awaken. While I do have that annoying beep pattern to ensure that I am awake, what wakes me up is something totally different. I recently came across a clip of Jackson State University's band playing their "Blowing Fanfare"...the power is so raw, I decided that it would be my alarm. Works like a charm!

 

 I'm such a band geek

Old Poetry - "Sad" (02.11.08)

Sittin in Class

Tryin 2 Relax

Nd focus on reasoning

But I was really focusing on last evening

Nd tha chat that took place on tha inside

See it was 4AM

Nd da conference room was open

Man ma brain was smokin'

Tha topic for discussion

Was ma role in the world

Nd how I was not supposed 2 make it

Ya see Henry kept me afloat

Nd AJ dragged me under

So I was pretty level headed

About ma place in dis cold world

Nd tha barz dat Im supposed 2 b behind

Ya see, Henry was mad

AJ was silent

cuz they tried to lock me down

Over a change of random acts of violence

Dat left a scar on ma chest

nd a bullet in ma soul

Permanently a mark of tha day i picked maself up out this hole

Still mad they tried to lock me down

Over a case of random acts of violence

Why??? Cuz ma skin tone was brown

College bookz in ma bag

Datz a cover up he said

Say wat??? I Said

I prolly stole those bookz he said

Nd if I keep going down this road

I'll end up dead

That is wat tha black cop that stopped me said

It seems to be

Or well, it seems to me

that they want me to be a product

of my society

The society that we made for ourselves

We seem to get poorer as the rich increase their own wealth

But we are stuck

Stuck where the longer you live

The closer you get to death

Life is funy

Cuz some defied the odds

Came up out tha hood

We mde it this far

I give big upz to those

Who aint changed a bit

Still goin' to class

and handlin' they shit

Cuz see I could go on & on

About the "man" & the "system"

But what more can be said

Cuz we're ahead of the game 

So we gotta make a name 

For OURSELVES

naw bruh...not just for ourselves

but for tha young onez too

Old Poetry - When Analytical Reasoning Gets Boring (1.13.08)

Sittin in Class

Tryin 2 Relax

Nd focus on reasoning

But I was really focusing on last evening

Nd tha chat that took place on tha inside

See it was 4AM

Nd da conference room was open

Man ma brain was smokin'

Tha topic for discussion

Was ma role in the world

Nd how I was not supposed 2 make it

Ya see Henry kept me afloat

Nd AJ dragged me under

So I was pretty level headed

About ma place in dis cold world

Nd tha barz dat Im supposed 2 b behind

Ya see, Henry was mad

AJ was silent

cuz they tried to lock me down

Over a change of random acts of violence

Dat left a scar on ma chest

nd a bullet in ma soul

Permanently a mark of tha day i picked maself up out this hole

Still mad they tried to lock me down

Over a case of random acts of violence

Why??? Cuz ma skin tone was brown

College bookz in ma bag

Datz a cover up he said

Say wat??? I Said

I prolly stole those bookz he said

Nd if I keep going down this road

I'll end up dead

That is wat tha black cop that stopped me said

It seems to be

Or well, it seems to me

that they want me to be a product

of my society

The society that we made for ourselves

We seem to get poorer as the rich increase their own wealth

But we are stuck

Stuck where the longer you live

The closer you get to death

Life is funy

Cuz some defied the odds

Came up out tha hood

We mde it this far

I give big upz to those

Who aint changed a bit

Still goin' to class

and handlin' they shit

Cuz see I could go on & on

About the "man" & the "system"

But what more can be said

Cuz we're ahead of the game 

So we gotta make a name 

For OURSELVES

naw bruh...not just for ourselves

but for tha young onez too

Old Poetry - My Holiday Synopsis '2007 (01/03/08)

AND 4 THA DAYUM RECORD...I DONT RAP
I DONT FLO
I DONT SPIT
I WRITE.....DAMN

No snow
No school
Temp is like 70
But im so cool

At momz house 4 Christmas
U can only expect da best
But for some reason dis year
felt soo unlike all da rest

Like a child alone at da mall
I felt so lost
U couldnt pay me 2 b happy
No matta wat tha cost

Work was lame
Da mall was boring
Skatin brought a smile
Da fam was most worth while

Shame on me
Shame on me
Cuz i had no idea
Without help of a calendar
On wat day Christmas would be
It shocked even me
Cuz it seemed like Christmas had finally left ma soul
Drifted off to heaven
Christmas Eve seemed like just anotha day
More work, more lamez
Givin' Good service was workin on ma nerves
But occasionally i got 2 work wit da gurl wit da curves(...lol)
But datz not da point

Am I complainin' 2 much
About wat i used 2 feel
About growin' up....
But so much has changed
Life has started slowin' up
Nd itz like i dont wanna change
But i feel it in ma soul
tha dark hole
itz growin
nd itz showin'

Can some1 save me
Help me see
Dat there is still good in me
Cuz i wanna live too
Dont wanna feel alone...

Christmas day came
It was one big nigga moment
I got tha videoz to prove
Dat we are tha slowest at any given moment
AJ + Carl Funny = Tha Niggas
Wat more can be said
Together we've been growin'
It was tha highlight of ma vacation
Besides seein' some old friends 
of nerdy dayz past
I wished Christmas day would nt end....
(Yes...do see tha snap nd roll video)

New years eve came... nd b4 i headed out
I took a minute
Turned out all tha lights
Except for one
Tha lightz on tha christmas tree
The only lightz i wanted to see
was on da star of ma christmas tree
i felt weak nd dropped 2 mah knee
i backtracked to all that
came 2 mind about '07
2 promz, graduation, death
shannon waller, A&T, ma back nd ma health
police, brookmere, nuttin 2 fear, 
datz wat AJ told me,
Henry said they're both here 4 me
So i guess itz just us against tha world
But of course...i got ma friendz....