wHAT dOES iT mEAN?? (02/19/08)

They say life is what chu make it 

So wat is it wen u hate it?

Wen the fantasy that brings joy to ur soul

Disappears and leaves u bak at tha black hole

Where u 1st started

U try and tell urself

Wait it out and be strong

But the person inside doesnt wanna be calm

It wants to rid itself of the taste in its mouth

Tha taste of agony,

the smell of defeat

It wants to wash to dirt of tha world off its feet

But What does that reveal?

Bucz some see dirt as something to hide

But in reality, mayb dirt is something used to hide

DIrt covers of what we actually feel inside

DirT protects us from tha truth

So I wonder how many how of you reading this 

Are asking yourself this:

Y do I do the things I do?

Mayb its habit

Mayb its tha desire to not be alone

Me, its the strong hate

Of what calls my heart its home

There are some things

Which some are not supposed 2 see

Some thingz that lay inside of me

Nd i kno im not alone

So mayb i cant condone

The thingz i see nd do

But that wat makez me different from u

I've done a good thing making my light shine

But due to recent actions

This little light of mine

Doesnt wanna shine

Is It wrong

To embrace the darkness

That callz my heart its home

Tha dark part of my past

Came bak 4 me 

Wen i was knocked on my ass

For those who worry of my well-being

Worry not, u will not see the change

Just kno that there are two entities

That inhabit my brain

------"Heartless"